What seemed like such a short while ago...

So, can you tell that I have the blogging fever again and I am all into it? I really feel like I have alot to say. It may not mean anything to anyone else, but hopefully it will! :)

Everyone knows... I'm engaged (EEK!!!lol)! Have been for about 5 months. I could go on and on, but that isn't the point. The point is I fear that now all of the sudden I'm in the category of "one of those girls". You know the "Lucky" kind who found her love before age 30. I am not all of the sudden thrown in the category of, "She has no idea what it is like to be single". Welllllll oh contrar. As a matter of fact this time last year i was single.... very single... lol It is crazy... I know! Trust me. I've been thinking back alot this last week or so b/c soon it will be when Matt and I began talking. This post is not going to get into just wait or how God worked it all out. I have no doubt at all He did, but that will be saved for another post. Tonight I just wanted to say.... I am just like you. I am engaged and you may or may not be, but please do not write me off. I understand loneliness, fear of never finding the right one, begging God to send Him (You should read some of my journals!), and so on. I do see the other side though and I can offer hope. So often older women try to encourage us and they mean it out of the best heart, but the thing is it seems so distant and we don't see how they can understand what it feels like. Please know that I am only mere 20. Sometimes I feel like this last year has been a crazy roller coaster, but at the same time I know it is the divine will of God.


All this to say.... Please know that where I am coming from is no old woman who has had a man forever. I know the pain of wondering, waiting, and longing. I write from the heart and with brutal honesty sometimes. I want to encourage you and push you on when you feel like giving in. Purity is worth it. That's all I have to say tonight!

Much love,
JEN